"Sorry about this ole deer-in-the-headlights look.
My body is stuck in a freeze state due to years of abuse and neglect. I think you're a great guy but honestly that's a trigger in itself. I want to be around you but this track keeps playing in my mind,
'He's here to hurt you
He's here to use you
He doesn't actually like you.'
It's a lot, and I don't know how to reset my nervous system right now.
